Another Year Older

Today is my birthday. I am 29 years old.

Today is also Capt. Chaos’ birthday. He is 8 years old.

The past 8 years have flown by and I’m not entirely sure where they’ve gone.

I know I worked part time for one of them, took a year out then worked full time for another 2 years. I’ve since been home and added an extra 2 children to the family. But other than that, I’m not entirely sure what I’ve done?

I always said that I wanted 4 children and to have completed my family by the time I am 30. I’ve done that and now I admit I’m feeling a little lost.

I have my business that I trying my hardest to grow, but you never truly realise how difficult it is to grow a business until you are in that position. I’m also looking in to expanding my writing more – perhaps take a few courses.

For the past 8 years I’ve not known anything other than being a mum and being pregnant.

I love being a mum and I loved being pregnant but the pregnancy stage is over now and I feel lost. Baby is growing up and soon turning One – so that’s another chapter closing. No more babies!

I guess it’s time to do something for me? To find me – whoever or wherever she may be. But how? Where do I even start? And do I really want to? Do I want to know who I really am? Am I being selfish to my children for wanting to be something other than Mummy?

But I know it’ll do me good. It’ll give me back a little independence. So I’ve decided I want to set myself a little challenge.

As I accomplished my previously set goal of completing my family by the time I turn 30, I’ve decided to change it and focus a bit more on me; rather than us as a family.

My Goals:

• I want to have lost 2st
• I want to be writing more freelance
• I hope to start a novel.

Sound doable?

Watch this space I guess!

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