I am a Mother to Six, not Four

I am a Mother
Not a Mother to four
But to six
There were two more

I may never have felt their flutters
Seen their heartbeat flicking away
Never held them in my arms
But in my heart they stay

I never got to hear them cry
To count their fingers and toes
To see their beautiful faces
Or that newborn button nose

Some say they never existed
Our pregnancies didn’t last that long
Not even past the twelve week stage
But I tell them they are wrong

My babies, they were real
From the moment they were conceived
They are my babies
And I should be allowed to grieve

To grieve for the children
That never walked this earth
Whose hands I never got to hold
Their bodies I never got to birth

But they are still my babies
I think of them every day
Think of all the words
I never got to say

Keoni and Luka
Are the names we gave
To our sweet little children
Although there is no grave

Always in our heart
Is where we hold them forever
Until the day we meet again
We’ll forget them never

They will always be my babies
Even though they didn’t grow
They will always be my babies
The ones I do not know

I am a Mother
Not a Mother to four
But to six
There were two more

Keoni and Luka 2



  1. March 1, 2014 / 7:13 pm

    This is beautifully written x You are a mother of six and I am glad that you came today x Hope to see you again soon x I think you are rather wonderful xx

    • March 1, 2014 / 7:36 pm

      Thank you so much Jennie. For your kind words and for allowing me to share today with you. You are an amazing lady xx

  2. Clare
    March 1, 2014 / 8:21 pm

    This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing and I’m sorry for your losses.

  3. March 1, 2014 / 8:47 pm

    What a beautiful poem – I’m in tears. Thanks for sharing. You will always be a mother to six. xx

  4. March 1, 2014 / 11:55 pm

    I’m in tears. Just beautiful.
    I’m a Mummy to 7 babies not just my 2 earth ones.
    I’ve never gotten over my mmc – the one where I did see a hb twice and I don’t think I ever will if I’m honest

    • March 2, 2014 / 9:10 am

      Thank you. I don’t think you ever get over losing a baby, not matter what stage they were at. Big hugs and lots of love to you xxx

  5. March 10, 2014 / 9:44 pm

    Beautifully written.

    I am a mother to three, not two.


    • March 14, 2014 / 9:12 am

      Thank you and yes you are a Mother to three! I am sorry for your loss xx

  6. Emily g
    May 14, 2014 / 2:13 pm

    This is beautiful and just how I feel about the baby I lost through an ectopic pregnancy x