I’ve not really talked about our Breastfeeding journey this time round, probably because there’s really not much to say…until now.
Despite having issues with not Breastfeeding the older 2, I’ve been quite lucky with the younger 2 in the respect of its been fairly plain sailing. We had a few issues when they were born, both being unable to maintain their blood sugar levels so were given little formula top ups of formula to get their levels up. Both only had these top ups for 24hrs and then they seemed to level out and breast milk alone was able to keep them stabilised.
I’ve never suffered from mastitis or anything and our journey with Toddler was good. She fed well, she slept well. We had the odd biting issue but that was it. I stopped Breastfeeding her at 14.5 months when I had to have surgery on my throat. I was told I couldn’t Breastfeed her anymore due to the medications I had to take after. She wasn’t ready to stop and hated me for a week. She would have happily carried on, although I’m not sure for how long as I fell pregnant weeks after my surgery.
When I had Baby, I was determined to let him feed for as long as he wanted and needed it.
We have had issues with his weight and growth and although none of the health professionals have mentioned the word ‘formula’ it has crossed my mind.
Another reason I’ve thought about it is on purely selfish grounds. Baby isn’t sleeping, therefore I’m not sleeping. It’s leaving me stressed and grouchy and not a very happy or nice person. He’s started to feed more from me (every 1-2hrs) and he pinches me whilst feeding which really hurts, although I know it’s a bit of a cop out to think of quitting Breastfeeding for that.
I just want to do what is best for our family and for Baby, but I feel like I’ll be majorly letting him down and failing him if I stop feeding him, which is best for him. Do I persevere and carry on or do I give up in an attempt to make things better, but make myself feel more guilty?
Anyone else go through this dilemma? What did you do?